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Ya know, sometimes I feel the same way. I don't know what else to say about it, I apologize.

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Nice pic Kestin.

One day hopefully I'll be comfortable enough to talk to you about some of this stuff!

Have to draw me one of these...

Ooh, very open and honest. Quite fascinating.

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man, respect to you guys who can actually do this.
heres as far as mine will ever get: Too scared to put anything down on paper

Hey there thanks for sharing this

Since you wrote something personal to a bunch of strangers, let me write something personal back:

A lot of what you wrote about gender is what I feel. When I discovered female-to-male transsexuality, I really thought that fit me. Especially the top surgery aspect. The idea of taking Testosterone really freaks me out, though. I don't like excess body hair and I don't want to smell like a guy, even though I wear cologne and 'male' deodorant. I also wear male clothing and shave my head. Sometimes I bind my chest or pack (packing's for special occasions only, lol).

Before I did these things I used to be depressed and definitely felt anguished over matters of gender. Although I'm still confused about my gender, since that I've come to terms with my 'not-female'ness, I've become a lot happier.

Anyway Hopefully your gender orientation is something that will bring you happiness and pride Even if it's not always easy to live this way.

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Look at meeee

Hmm...quite interesting...I wish I could help you out with your troubles...but you know me~! less brains than an starfish.
Anyways...I hope this gender jigsaw comes together soon, and with no difficulties or troubles along the way.
As for some of the other stuff, I think you should aim to be the best, ya know? You've always appeared to be so bright, and a really talented and diverse artist *envys*, so if thats what you want, go for it~!
And to people that don't like you...well fuck them, they don't matter and leave them behind. Sometimes I know that is hard though...if they are in your face about it.

Anyways, best wishes to you~~ funky picture btw, looks just like ya~!

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I suggest going to a therapist that can help you work out your gender orientation. There is nothing wrong with feeling confused about your orientation or your sexuality. You just have to talk to someone that works in the professional realm of sexuality (which is definitely not talked about enough). I hope you can sort it all out!!! Don't be ashamed of who you are or the way you feel and don't let people bother you. The majority are ignorant and biased by society at large. They don't see people that are not the same as them as being normal or feeling like everyone else. (btw I feel that everyone should be forced to take a human sexuality course in school )

I feel deeply for you, I think many people go through insecturities about their sexuality and gender. It isn't a fun ride, by any means. Hopefully you'll look back on it as a learning experience, no matter how difficult it was. Hell, it's rough when you're going through it, but take into consideration that you might always feel that way, until you can accept the fact that you are you. You deserve to feel how you feel, and no one should tell you it's wrong or incorrect.
Also, it's your perogative to believe whatever you wish, and any "christain" should know that since in the Bible it describes God giving us free will. Tell whoever is bugging you to quit Bible-bashing in your face and talk to someone who cares about it.
Anyways, I just wanted to tell you how much I totally respect you for saying what you have. It takes a lot of guts and in a way it already tells me that you can be the best you can be if you truely want to. And I know that we've probably never talked and I'm just a weird dA stalker, but if you ever need to chat I'd be willing to listen.
Feel for you, and always remember you are a beautiful person, no matter what any inconsiderate ignorant people tell you.

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